You are involved in unconscious distortions which are producing a dense cover over miracle impulses, and which make it hard for them to reach consciousness.
~A Course In Miracles T 1.2
We blanket our deep rooted beliefs of unworthiness and lack, with thoughts of goodness, positive thinking and manifesting. We try and navigate between two minds sets, two worlds. Its a process. But it is not yet true healing. This is NOT healing. This is jumping over the corrective agent by taking concepts as if they are our own. We must let our minds be changed for us, as to not vacillate between worlds... but find a consistency in how we think and live our life. What is stable and forever now is peace.
True peace can never be found in taking the spiritual route route unless we learn we are Spirit and what that truly means. Those who do take up this path generally have days filled with fear, confusion and depression mixed in with days of boundless happiness and appearing euphoria. They are caught within the matrix, believing they are spiritual enough and know how to heal. They fancy up this world, and all the ways of spiritual healing and beauty in nature and the body, to only forget that our true home is not of this world. Our true healing is not of this world. Spirituality is indeed helpful! Yet there is a truth that is beyond the spiritual practices of this world, and it is when we turn within to the divine healer there, that we can claim that I AM SPIRIT and not this body, that we go free, fully heal and fully understand.
The recognition that we are not spiritual, but rather we are Spirit, is when our TRUE power can be restored to us. When we believe ourselves to be this spiritual person, we are trying to use this as a character, as a title on which we can label ourselves. It is simply another way for us to feel separate and different, perhaps better than others. It is a means to try and have authority over ourselves and others, instead of having our authority be of God. This inspires separation and guru status, versus equality and oneness. It is God who gives us our power and who heals, it is not the thinker who believes it is spiritual and believes they know how to heal. They play the part of being “spiritual” or “awakened”, and what happens with this is that they end up creating another character for themselves, instead of having an experience of our true One Self that comes directly from God. They tend to be happy, perky and fun yet they accept both the life of ego and the divine both consciously and unconsciously- so they are split in their thinking and often contradictory in words.
They can often tell themselves and others to just accept both sides of pain and pleasure because we still live in this world of duality. They tend to experience the unhappy confusing roller coaster of life from this declaration. In accepting both the good and the bad is such an enormous contradiction I cant even begin to explain here…..but it is a mechanism of defense in the mind that keeps us locked in the world of duality instead of being released from it.
Often they don’t ask for correction from our Inner Teacher, for they turn to spirituality and its practices. Through the loose vigilance for Mind Training, they remain on the hampster wheel having good days and bad days and trying to find the balance between the two. These spiritual people (I was one of them) have most probably risen from where they were in negativity and depression to one of more happier days……yet they have failed to see the stability of constant peace, joy and direction that is given us when we accept ourselves AS SPIRIT. They jump right over the healing agent in our mind, and expect others to “get to a particular state” instead of undoing the error at its cause, which is in the mind that is perceiving wrongly. This is the loop our mind takes us on until we end the seeking, and receive the truth that is already given us within instead.
This is not to say that Spiritual people are not helpful or that they are wrong in what they are saying and teaching…..but rather, they have allowed their ego mind to take the thoughts of oneness and spirituality and use it as a trap for the Self. It is easy to get caught here as our ego is brilliant in its defense mechanisms. It will do anything to keep us feeling different, better or separate, or justify its previous beliefs…… even if it covers it up with pretty words of oneness and thoughts of wanting to help others. People who are experiencing this have done nothing wrong, they know not what they do. But there IS a correction for it, that can be received in the mind that asks only for the truth.
How to move beyond contradiction, to Peace
The answers will never be found in a guru, a book, a religion, non-dualism or otherwise…..no energy work will heal us, or ritual of any kind. The ONLY solution that will get us out of the mess that we have created in our lives and in this world, is the recognition of who we really are as Gods Children and to accept our inner teacher to heal our minds. Our Divine Mind speaks to us in stillness and guides us through the use of reason to look at our ego thoughts(spiritual and fearful) to undo them. We must release the bondage of our ego mind and let all illusions go, so that the light and truth rise in its place.
We cannot ever have both truth and illusions as the Source of our thinking. It is a choice we make Love or fear, God or ego, Truth or illusion- not both. This choice IS our free Will. And we can ALWAYS choose again, in every now moment.
You are innocent. You have done nothing wrong.
Let the goal of giving your mind to the Holy Spirit for correction be your only focus now.
Your willingness and openness will make total correction and peace possible.
You don't know what needs to be corrected or healed, but the Holy Spirit does. Its His job, and so leave it to Him as you Listen within, and healing happens.
Be willing to be wrong, be willing to learn, be willing to be the student and Listen.
“I give my mind to the Holy Spirit to help me undo the Ego I made for myself. I am the student, you are the teacher…teach me!”